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The burden of Expectations by Saqlain taswar

The Burden of Expectations

The Burden of Expectations

— Walls of Hope and Suffocation —

Expectations are the invisible architects of our inner prisons. They rise like towering walls, built brick by brick from the dreams of others and the hopes we impose on ourselves. What begins as aspiration soon becomes a suffocating weight—promises of success, love, perfection that choke the breath from our spirits. I have carried this burden until my shoulders bowed, until hope itself turned to despair, trapping me between the illusion of potential and the reality of my fractured self.

Society scripts our roles with relentless precision: the dutiful child, the ambitious professional, the unflinching provider. Parents' eyes gleam with visions of glory we never chose; friends measure our worth by milestones unmet; we, in turn, chase shadows of approval, equating value with achievement. Each unmet expectation carves a deeper wound—failure whispered as inadequacy, success fleeting and hollow. The walls close in: hope dangles like a distant light, but the air grows thin, heavy with judgment's echo. "You should be more," they say, and we believe it, building higher barriers to hide our stumbling humanity.

I recall the nights when ambition's fire burned brightest, fueling all-nighters and sacrificed joys, only to awaken to suffocation. The promotion that demanded my soul, the relationship molded to fit ideals rather than truth, the self-image polished to perfection's cruel standard—these were the chains disguised as ladders. Hope promised liberation: "Just one more step, one more win." But each climb led deeper into isolation, walls of expectation blocking the raw, messy beauty of simply being. We suffocate not from lack, but from the pressure to embody ideals that were never ours.

Yet, these walls teach a harsh liberation. To dismantle them is to confront the lie: expectations are not destiny, but distortions we can refuse. Hope, unburdened, becomes a gentle guide rather than a tyrant—accepting flaws, celebrating small truths over grand facades. Tear down the barriers: forgive the world its projections, release yourself from self-imposed cages. In the rubble lies freedom—the space to breathe, to falter, to rise on your own terms.

Reader, feel the weight you carry. Those walls of hope and suffocation are universal, but so is the power to breach them. Step back, question the blueprints. True light filters through cracks of authenticity, not perfection. Let go, and watch the prison crumble into open sky.

Reflections from Others

SkillfullMeans: This is so beautiful!

themerlin: What kind of experience you had

crimsonRaspberries1486: This was beautifully written, thank you so much for the lovely gentle poetic reminder of what we envisioned for ourselves and our standards. I think I have to sit down with myself and really question some things.

themerlin: Your review meant the world to me. I am really thankful for your time and feedback. Also, your reply proves that I am not saying something only true to myself.

themerlin: That means a lot. The moment you sit with yourself honestly, the walls already begin to fall. Questioning is the first act of freedom. 🌙

crimsonRaspberries1486: I've entered a new chapter in my healing. I've come a long way, so I really needed to see this post. I hope you are having a lovely day 💓 What would you say is the most impactful way to sit down with yourself? Is it something each person goes through in their own way, like everyone's healing journey?

themerlin: That’s such a profound question. 🌙 To sit with yourself is not about techniques — it’s about permission. Permission to stop performing, to stop fixing, and to simply witness what rises. Some people find it through journaling, some through silence, some through long walks where thoughts untangle on their own. For me, it begins with honesty — sitting without distraction and asking, “What am I avoiding right now?” The answer usually opens a doorway. Healing doesn’t demand effort; it asks for presence. And presence, once allowed, does the rest. 🌿

crimsonRaspberries1486: I am learning through journaling. I am discovering so much with myself and my soul. I believe I am heading down the right path with what you speak of. I've been having hard conversations, difficult things I didn't give myself permission to talk about for a while. It takes a different level of strength to sit face-to-face with yourself and speak. I do this through daydreaming and journaling. When I daydream, I go elsewhere, away from earth, and sometimes I sit and speak my own mind, releasing the emotions I keep from others. It's a healing I don't like but it's healthy, raw, beautiful, and helps me grow. 🌱

themerlin: Your words left me still for a while — that kind of honesty doesn’t just speak, it echoes. 🌙 The place you describe — where pain and daydream meet — I understand it completely. It’s that quiet corner of the soul where we can finally let the truth scream without fear of breaking anything around us. You’re not rambling; you’re revealing. And that takes courage most people spend lifetimes avoiding. Daydreaming, journaling — they’re both bridges, aren’t they? One takes us beyond the world, the other brings us gently back. What matters is that you’re walking between them with awareness, letting the emotions move instead of letting them rot. That’s growth — raw, unpolished, real. Thank you for trusting me with that piece of you. 🌿

crimsonRaspberries1486: Thank you for letting me speak. It's too often I let these truths out to people. My circle is extremely tight. I am working on trusting people again, and people like you on this platform let me see that I can trust. Sometimes when you talk to someone, you yourself have to set the right mood to do so. To be open and honest with not only you but myself takes music. Music also contains so much power; even if it's just instrumental, it can take you to another world if you let it. I bounce between earth and elsewhere. I used to go there to escape agony; now I go there to regain myself, regain my powers, dive deep to find me. I have redeemed so much of myself and I still have a whole life to continue to break chains, build, love, and fight. I am not damaged; I'm a messy human trying to live through pain. I push and see the light at the end of the tunnel. 🕯️❤️‍🔥

AdvocateHP: This is wonderfully written, thank you for sharing! Indeed, there is a beauty in simplicity and a strength in staying true to oneself. May you always be what you are: the best you I know 😊

fossilfellow: Thank you for sharing this 🥰 You're awesome <3, and you truly matter ❤️ Sending lots of love your way 🐾💕

About the Author

Saqlain Taswar writes on mental health, emotional healing, and personal growth. Through reflective writing and sharing personal experiences, he helps others navigate challenges, reclaim emotional well-being, and break free from self-imposed pressures. Connect with him on 7 Cups.

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